Painted Scars on Canvas Thighs

Time to get healthy. I ordered my pill container, started a running log, going to begin a food...

Tue, 21 May 2013 16:51:49 -0500

Time to get healthy. I ordered my pill container, started a running log, going to begin a food diary.

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Wed, 27 Mar 2013 20:59:16 -0500

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o-riginiall:

qlacier:

qirls:

hunqrystfu:

cant stop crying

Everyone needs to reblog this, this is so amazing.

im legit sobbing right now

This is the stuff that needs 47537476243 notes.

im crying so hard this is perfect

Too perfect not to reblog, no matter what “blog type” you are.

This is triggering guys but you need to see it if you can. Not something I’d expect from that band wow.

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"Pain is important: how we evade it, how we succumb to it, how we deal with it, how we transcend it."

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 22:24:03 -0500

“Pain is important: how we evade it, how we succumb to it, how we deal with it, how we transcend it.”

- Audre Lorde (via perfect)

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Tue, 26 Mar 2013 22:22:44 -0500

I sent my boyfriend a very long and sexy email (sorry, not sorry) just for the hell of it, and...

Tue, 26 Mar 2013 22:15:17 -0500

I sent my boyfriend a very long and sexy email (sorry, not sorry) just for the hell of it, and sarcastically texted, “I sent you a long email. I’m not sure if you’ll like it.” With a slash face. He immediately responded with, “Just tell me here first if you hurt yourself…”

And it honestly made me so sad…

He can’t trust me :(

He can’t trust the fact that I have learned to talk to him about those things before they happen.

But he will. Someday, he will…

Because my goal is to be clean, and stay clean. By being happy, and staying happy.

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Mon, 25 Mar 2013 22:24:55 -0500

My boyfriend said that maybe there is a way I can make my scars go away. I told him no. I told him...

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 18:12:31 -0500

My boyfriend said that maybe there is a way I can make my scars go away. I told him no. I told him I’d rather keep them. I need a reminder of how bad things got, of what I went through. I need him to look at me and see what he saved me from.

Well…I relapsed. Again. Last time, I was so worried I’d hurt him, so upset…I...

Wed, 13 Mar 2013 21:34:03 -0500

Well…I relapsed.

Again.

Last time, I was so worried I’d hurt him, so upset…I bawled in the shower for half an hour and I told him he shouldn’t want to talk to me because I’d done something awful after I’d promised him I’d be strong, tell him if I got the urge, and that I wouldn’t cut myself. Well…he wasn’t hurt. He was disappointed in me, and we had a very long talk about it. He said he wouldn’t let that hurt him because if he let it hurt him, he’d be hurting instead of helping me.

He shouldn’t have said that.

Because this time…it’s less time in between, he’s in Turkey (so it’s not like he’s suspecting anything) and I knew beforehand he wouldn’t be hurt. So I’m only hurting myself this time. Which is the goal…

It’s a nice set, too. Deep and long, the way I like them…

I don’t have to do this anymore. I never have to hurt myself, ever again. I’ve met...

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 19:14:05 -0600

I don’t have to do this anymore. I never have to hurt myself, ever again. I’ve met someone, and he has shown me that I can’t do it anymore. I’ve been able to be three weeks clean, with his help. I honestly love him for doing this for me. No one asked him. He just…did.

I wish everyone had someone like him. Someone they could turn to, someone to rescue them from themselves…

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It’s getting to the point where when I shave my legs, I don’t really care about shaving...

Mon, 07 Jan 2013 18:21:46 -0600

It’s getting to the point where when I shave my legs, I don’t really care about shaving around my cuts anymore. I just go right over them and if they open back up and bleed, who fucking cares?

I guess I like re-cutting. I did it again from a few more of my older scars. I just need to know one...

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 22:13:34 -0600

I guess I like re-cutting. I did it again from a few more of my older scars.
I just need to know one thing. How do you look into the eyes of a person you care about, a person you’re in love with, a person who sees you only as a friend—how do you tell them, “I cut myself. Every day. Because of you.” How do you do that? I’d love to know how….

Tonight I re-cut a cut from last week that was starting to close and heal, and I cut pretty deep. I...

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 22:05:09 -0600

Tonight I re-cut a cut from last week that was starting to close and heal, and I cut pretty deep. I have this stupidly ridiculous goal to one day make a cut deep enough to need stitches but not go get them. I don’t really know why, but that did not happen tonight. I went several days without cutting because I was at my grandma’s without a razor, and then I was at my friend’s house for New Year’s. But I’m honestly glad to be back at it. It feels so good. But about the stitches thing…I always feel so pathetic about my cuts. They’re never as deep as I want them to be. Sometimes though I just make a lot of little slashes and they’re not deep but there are so many of them they burn and sting all the time and that’s nice, too.

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break-down-everyday:

Depression & Self-Harm Blog!

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